Emma lou was my maw,maw. she loved her kids, grandkids, and great grandkids. maw,maw would do anything and everything for us. i used to paint her nails and do her hair for her, i am so thankfull for everything she did for me and my sisters.if you didnt know maw,maw then you where missing out. she was the sweetest most caring person you would ever meet. i miss her everyday. i hope she is proud of me up in heaven watching me. i will never forget her. i am still mad at myself for not going to her funeral, i was just a kid i didnt know how to handle my feelings but that doesnt exuse my absents. i miss her so much. even before she was in heaven i used to pray to her and talk to her. one time mawmaw got sick and she couldnt raise us anymore. so with my mother being absent from my life i had to go live with my father. i missed my maw, maw, my aunt jenny and my uncle fuzz  at the river. and maw,maw did all she could to get to see us every now and then. whilst i was living with my father me and my little sister where a subject of abuse. we had been beaten and bruised. and i felt so helpless, we where just kids and we coulding do anything about it. so when we i was in a rough spot i would pray to go see my maw,maw. And eventually we would get to see her. when i went to see my maw  maw, i felt loved, she would wrap me up in her arms and tell me she loved me . when she hugged me i felt free and i felt all my pain go away. maw,maw meant freedom to me. when someone mentions mawmaw i think of caring loving mother. i say mother because she was my mother when my real one wasnt there. i know her life wasnt perfect and i witnessed too many people take atvantage of her kindness, i witnessed too many people take her medication that kept her alive just to feel a little bit high. i know it was hard for her, i know she felt defensless sometimes. if you knew my maw,maw she did something for you, maybe it was just a small complement or maybe she helped you out or maybe even let you cry on her shoulder. that was my maw maw. she was the most amazing person i have ever met in my 16 years of living. my goal is to be her  be as caring and kind and as selfless as her. i miss her everyday and i wish i could see her again and hug her even just for a moment , i would do anything to here her say "i love you" one more time.